Forbidden Love - We Conceived a Child
It feels like I have spent my entire life trying to forget you. You were my first love, my only real true love, the one person I loved more than anything in the world. I loved you from the first moment I laid eyes on you and I have ever since.
Now the mixed emotions of my heart swing from love and joy, to hurt and sadness. I am so confused… I just don’t know what to do. The love that we share together makes me feel so complete but in so many ways it tears my heart to pieces. My every desire is to be with you. Some nights I close my eyes and dream of the two of us together…walking together through life together as friends and lovers, as the two soul mates who finally found each other. I long to be the one you wake up to in the mornings and the one you kiss goodnight, every night. I love you so much that it makes my heart ache.
Yet I don’t know how I can still love you as much as I do, knowing that you are married and have a family with someone else. I cannot help but feel such sadness that you have never known your other family. The __(son/daughter)__ that you and I share together. Though you didn’t know that you were __(his/her)__ father, it was out of love that we conceived __(him/her)__. Fear of being chastised by our families was why I never told anyone else who __(his/her)__ father was, but it was only out of my unselfish love for you, that I never told you about __(him/her)__. I didn’t want to cause trouble in your life.
I know this whole thing came as a big shock to both you and __(son/daughter’s name)__ and I can only imagine how you both must feel. The decision whether or not you wish to become involved in __(his/her)__, life lies with you. I know the implications it will have on your life…I have known all along. I just want you to know that it is no longer only me that you must take into consideration with your decision. Now that your __(son/daughter)__ knows who __(his/her)__ father is, __(he/she)__ longs to know you and to have a relationship with you. __(He/She)__ is waiting for the sign from you hoping that you feel the same way.
No matter what your decision is, __(name)__, I will always hold a special place for you in my heart. It’s true… it is better to have loved and lost, than to never to have loved at all. I am happy that I knew true love, for it is from that love that I have my most cherished memories and my beloved __(son/daughter)__.
With all my heart,